ALONE

it's just like everything didn't go well as i thought it would be
yes..these things...

friends..commitments..relationships..time...jeers...myself..

i'm confused...i'm in dilemma..

i thought i'm tough...

i thought i can endure those problems...

i thought i'm able to live with this environment...

i thought i can blend with all of them...

but these things just pop up at me in the wrong time..in the wrong place

and that time is now...

but i know...

i can't stand it anymore...

the more i tolerate...the more it hurts..

the more i pretend..the more it shot me back...

you may said...get along with the others...

they might lend some hand..

i tried...but it didn't work..

yeah..believe me..friends can be foes...

they can be thorns in the bush...

i didn't ask from them anything..

any concern...any money...any love..any trust..

even some pet talk or something..

what i need is some calm air to gasp...

but what i get...just another hit on the broken heart..

hurmm...maybe that's what i deserve...

that's what i'm for..

or maybe that's what my role in the puppet play....

yeah..others have their problems and business to settle too..

they don't have like everyday appointment for you..

so..don't expect anything extraordinary...

you right...at the end of the day...it's all up to you..

you have to trust your guts...

you have to follow your instinct..

you have to stand on your two small weak legs...

yah..i'm alone here...

with nobody to talk to willingly...

with nobody to understand me full-heartedly..

with nobody to care for me with their whole soul and dignity...

because in this world...every man for himself....

yeah...that's what i get......

thought it is cliche'...

that's the morale of the story..

though it is hard to swallow..

though it is painful to go through...

because at the end...you are ALONE......

oh god!! grant me some strength...

p/s: sometimes...i can get really emotional..yeah like this...hehehe..absolutely...there is time i can be as tough as a dam..but even a strong dam can be crushed by a non-harmful water...hehe